Saturday, April 23, 2005
i don't know if i should smile or not.
obviously deep inside im not the least bit happy.
got a nice verse... really made me think.
Jesus said to his disciples, 'If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.'
Matthew 16:24-25
i went swimming today! felt so good. could just drown all my sorrows. think abt nothing but feel the water. the sun. nature. so warm. how i wish life could be so.
i was blue-d at 10:30 PM
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
why must it be me?!
my life is a mess. broken into a million shards. and these shards are piercing me. sucking the life out of me by the second. im like a walking zombie. beware. grr.
i dun wanna see any one of you. pls stay out of my way. im sorry if i dao you. but i just cant bear the sight of you.
you wun understand how i feel. so dun even try. you'll only make things worse.
i dun make sense.
but i do noe i love my friends. and im grateful i have them. kim zhi wei jor meiqi... thanks so much!
i was blue-d at 7:01 PM
Monday, April 18, 2005
caught in the rain today. so super heavy. must thank my mum for bringing an umbrella for me to the bus stop and slippers to change to so that my shoes will not get wet! (:
had pe today. so slack. i duno how am i gonna get GOLD for napfa this year... and i dun just want gold. i want As. ok im putting unnecessary stress on myself again. me and my high expectations. did a few inclined pull ups today. the metal pole dropped on my lip! so erms... now i have a BRUISE on my lower lip! :(
i was blue-d at 7:25 PM
